lab report

Yeah yeah. tonight. was not what i expected. i had to write it somewhere. not like i have anyone i can really talk to anymore about how much of a whore i am. i feel gross right now. the night started out just like it would normally have. lb partner came over and we worked on our report thing. and he was ticklin me and what not and of ocurse right at the end hes packing his bag and he gives me a hug but pulls me in close and tickles me so i bend over, him still hugging me so i grab on his hips because that makes us even and he hugs me again, and then he picks me up and puts me on my bed hes already 95% so i lean the last 5% and we are kissing. we both kiss back but then he pulls away. we are just friends we cant do that. he's trying to get better. my lips still feel weird. not that there was a connection when he kissed me. i dont think. i dont really want there to be. he had nice lips tho. but i cant do that. he even called me out on liking THE BROTHER. i cant believe he called that one. i told him we dont talk anymore, and he asked why multiple times. i dont want to tell him its because i am a whore thats why.he doesnt want anything from me. no guy wants anything "real" with me. im not worth that. im just a pretty face. no one cares. no one loves me. its true dont try to tell me its not.
no.
one.
gives.
a.
shit.