lab report

Yeah yeah. tonight. was not what i expected. i had to write it somewhere. not like i have anyone i can really talk to anymore about how much of a whore i am. i feel gross right now. the night started out just like it would normally have. lb partner came over and we worked on our report thing. and he was ticklin me and what not and of ocurse right at the end hes packing his bag and he gives me a hug but pulls me in close and tickles me so i bend over, him still hugging me so i grab on his hips because that makes us even and he hugs me again, and then he picks me up and puts me on my bed hes already 95% so i lean the last 5% and we are kissing. we both kiss back but then he pulls away. we are just friends we cant do that. he's trying to get better. my lips still feel weird. not that there was a connection when he kissed me. i dont think. i dont really want there to be. he had nice lips tho. but i cant do that. he even called me out on liking THE BROTHER. i cant believe he called that one. i told him we dont talk anymore, and he asked why multiple times. i dont want to tell him its because i am a whore thats why.he doesnt want anything from me. no guy wants anything "real" with me. im not worth that. im just a pretty face. no one cares. no one loves me. its true dont try to tell me its not.
no.
one.
gives.
a.
shit.

listening to my hard rocker music
isnt helping
making me flyyyy higher

this is totally crazyy
its like i am sitting on the edge of my skin.
on the top of a building
leaning over the side
feeling the breeze
saying
"you'll just float to the bottom"
look what youve done
bitch
fucked up another life
pushing
pushing
some of them cant take it
some of them break
just like when you lean to far over the edge.....

idc wat #

My imaginary HL. well its coming to existance.
I need it. I need a HM. I waited an hour and a half to get my phone back.
I get there i am with Cig and some other kid and Lit Beast is there. We are like we want our phones back, the lady was like you have to wait.let me finish all this and i dont know if i will get done with it today. and i am leaving at 4:30 whether i get to it or not...
Lit Beast was walks to me puts her hand on my shoulder and says Im sorry i had to do this. I was like ok.... she walks away. she is #1 on HL. then South's administration. all of them. well maybe not new guy because he seems to be workin good for the school. but everyone else is dead. I didnt get my phone back. I wont be coming to school tomorrow i have AP exam so that means i have to A:explain to my mom why i dont have my phone B:borrow someones to call my parents all tomorrow C:go back to school tomorrow and wait again for my phone and i will not be letting them have it over the weekend they can kiss my shiny white ass.end of story.

This is complete and total shit. it was the last 5 minutes of class. lit beast said she saw me using it then y didnt she take it up then? she went in my purse to get it..thats trespassing. and then now apparently im getting written up for this. i was doing nothing but checking the time. i feel so naked..pissed, and emotional.i havent told silent yet and i really dont want to tell CEO. this is just what i need. Ive already been written up once for " cheating" my freshman year, when i wasnt. and now i have this which makes me look like a total fucking liar and shit and its fucking gay. Its ridiculious. I thought the school couldnt take your phone in the first place i guess they can when it involves testing. Thanks (a.m.] for helping out 4th period. and Boots too but asshold in office said she couldnt just give us our phones because she also had to give us our consequences.whatever the fuck that is going to be. I havent done anything, so i guess just give me my fucking refferal i will serve your gay ass detention and then i will blow up the school =]. nah jk.i will in my mind 189 days left there. then CEO is looking into a job there....... lordy. there are these temptations right now, looking me in the eye...this bottle of pain killers.i dont know what to do. i want to take a handful. i want to just leave.. i hate everything. i hate people.ive always hated people. there are 7 days left of school wat the fuck is wrong with everyone. why am i crying about this. i knew things were to good to be true...

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My poor brand new Book. has been assalted. Poor baby book had only been written twice. VOCAB made me do it. I wanted to sit next to ten ton and his huge ass is sitting next to her..Therefore Kris had to come out. Beat the fool with the book. Kicked em and he still trys to win. Crank held me back allowing him one free shot to the rock hard tummy. :P lol. and i was like grrrrr. lemme at em!! i really dont have my stuff to do my APUSH project stuff i guess i will do that before i leave for the sleepover tonight. Im so happy CEO said yes. O and we must call Sweetness tonight. I have to give him prom details...wowo i almost wrote porn details. :P jeez.

Until tonight girlies.

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I have come to the conclusion that Classic needs two alterego names.
Like Ms. (p.m.], Iesha Skyy, and Madison

They need to be well...
Ill put in the book. I have some to say. :P

Tonight was really interesting.

(p.m.] is COMING TOMORROW!!!!

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So tonight and well i guess this morning has been great.
i totally have a lunch date with Speedo and then a real date with Sweetness. Its going to be a fun weekend. I have had major crush on Sweetness for the longest time, and we tried the dating thing it just wasnt the right time. and i deff think something is going to happen this time. With Speedo its weird. I mean yes I like him or liked him.. i think liked. the past tense fits better. Well its like hes my older brother now bc he was talking to me while i was talking to Sweetness and he was like i gotta check this kid out i want to meet him. So me being the smart person i am said just friend request him.derr. so he does and "facebook stalkes" him.lol. and then tells me after about 30 minutes of talking to him, that Sweetness passed his test. So yes i am excited to go see my brother for lunch, because all girls know the lunch date is 0nly friend material. So yeah,more later i tired.

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"Your friend is the man who knows all about you, and still likes you."

Truth springs from argument amongst friends.- David Hume

You have made known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence. - Psalms 16: 11.

It is the ones you can call up at 4:00 a.m. that really matter. - Marlene Dietrich

A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg even though he knows that you are slightly cracked. - Bernard Meltzer

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(p.m.] you are always welcome at my house you know this. (a.m.] and I will always be there for you so dont fret. the numbers and emails are in the book. in yearbook, Boots is getting her blog ready and i think we are all ready to read what she has to say..

[more later]

later-12.52
ten ton is getting...i should say has been out of control for a while now..ever since she got the car.idk wat to do wit that child. she is deff a child. she needs someone to dish it to her and i was so tempted to just go ape-shit on her ass in fifth period but i dont think that would have been very lady-like of me. plus we were takin a quiz.would not have been pretty. she thinks by ignoring me that it hurts me. well it does not. i am completely fine with it...its funny whenever i explain the situation people agree with me. Auburn did.Crank did. (a.m.] and (p.m.] do. Lover says she doesnt care bc shes not going to prom. its funny. her group of people that we both hang out with are going to leave..just like they did in 6th grade when i told her off bc of the same reason.thinking she is all high and mighty and its not cool.

[again more later]

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So here is my "workout" lol
100 crunches
20 pushups

to be done very night in increasing incriments. =]

gettin the body back :P

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WOOOO!

Classic has a date for prom!!

Okay theres the convo. I am mucho excited for tomorrow AND anymone planning to ruin is getting a beat down!@

Jared
Kristen!
9:28pmKristen
Jared!!! :D hey
9:29pmJared
:-D how are you dear?
9:30pmKristen
better that i get to talk to you ;) lol. i jsut finished my math project
how was all that hw yest
9:31pmJared
hahaha same here. Its always better when kristen is around. you finished your project! high five! man it was bad. i stayed up forever.
9:33pmJared
but that usually ends up happening with my terrible case of AP (advanced procrastination)
how was your day?
9:34pmKristen
hahahhhaa
it wasnt that great. idk wat was up.prolly bc it was tuesday and i didnt wanna have to deal wit some ppl
wish it would have been wed so coulda been at church tonight
9:36pmJared
awww im sorry. it felt like a monday to me. it was LOONNNNGGG. well theres always tommorow for church right?
9:38pmKristen
yes there is and i indeed on making it a good day. ima dress up and be positive and make weekend plans and be wonderful. *self-pep talk* lol and get to see you all in one day.
9:40pmJared
i think i have an idea to make it even better.
9:41pmKristen
What?
9:42pmJared
hahahaha...*.hmmm....should i tell her now?........naaaa ill keep her in suspense.*
9:42pmKristen
JARED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TELL ME TELL ME TELL ME
PLEASE!!! :D
9:45pmJared
hmmmmm. ill give you a hint. it has two parts to it. one involves sugar and the other involves me getting really nervous. hahahaha
9:45pmKristen
Ummmmmm.....
WHAT??? :) i think me and you are ova the nerves...at least with you i am :P lol.
9:49pmJared
do you really wanna know? okay well its totally gonna give it away.....buutt...just so i dont totally embarass myself: Do you have a date for prom yet?
9:49pmKristen
of course i totally wanna know. :) I dont have a date.
9:51pmJared
Well i think you can guess what the me getting all nervous about tommorow is about then. *wink* *wink* hahaha but youll just have to wait about the sugar part. ;-)